So we are back in this same place again. She has no faith in me. Noone ever has. And the one person that did I damaged that. I am not sure what to do anymore. I want to keep her and be with her but it seems that the harder I try to hold on the further away she gets. I did this I know that. I made her 10 promises and I got nothing from her. I told her I missed her again nothing. I honesly feel like shes only with me to keep someone close to her. She wants to spend more time texting then talking to me. Even tho its not all the time its today. I need to let it be just let it all go. Im scared, I have never been this scared in my life.
Shes in the bath right now talking to her thats killing me.
I wish that bitch would fuck off and go away, Shes got a family. And quite frankly so does my WIFE! SHE IS MY GOD DAMN WIFE!
She knows I love her she knows how I feel so there for I am done telling her how much I need her and miss her and want her. I am going to make her come to me now.
I really hope that I have not lost her for good

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